Its all about betrayal. That is where our triggers come from. Real or perceived, it doesn’t really matter. All experience is subjective and far from complete. So our truth leads us into danger. As we seek to resolve our childhood issues..there is still a landmine before us. Navigating without reaction is impossible when someone hits that spot through word or action. Then we do damage both to them, and ourselves as we lash out in a survival instict of sel defense. It can get messy and yet it can happen so quickly we can’t stop ourselves even though there may be a warning. Self preservation is paramount. And after things become calm and still we may be able to recognize a pattern. What was the betrayal that lead to this triggered reaction. Once you identify the issue at hand you can prepare yourself to not respond. At least until you have processed or asked the right questions or even just given the person the benefit of the doubt. Because trust is so important. Every time we lash out albeit in self defense. We destroy it. If you can go through your childhood experiences and know what hurt you most you can do your own analysis. Know your triggers. It is just self defense.
Strength in uncertainty
The best laid plans broken, is how many of us have felt with the impact of COVID-19. As the foreigners fled the small Mexican village where I spend my winters, upon the urging of their home countries and concerned family members, the local tourist economy crashed, at least temporarily. Many of my friends and colleagues in Canada were the fortunate ones. With government jobs and the CERB assistance plan, we would get by, at least for now. As per usual, the impoverished were hit the hardest internationally by the restrictions, not that the global marketplace will ever give these people a fair chance anyway. As someone who does seasonal work I too have been in the process of downsizing, fortunately I was on this path already, but COVID-19 has made me even more determined than ever. To live simply, to follow my dreams. We are tested in these uncertain times to be present, kind, and real.
We are now being given the opportunity to re-invent ourselves. Will we step up and make the necessary sacrifices or not. Manifesting the world we want to be a part of without harming others and the environment could finally take precedence. Everyday I do a prayer and meditation for the planet and all she envelopes.
The world has been affected by many things, ongoing wars but not in our backyards, planetary disaster, considered only to be of concern for hippies until recently, poverty and exploitation as per usual, and starvation ongoing. But now, we have a dilemma that confronts us internationally which only the privileged will surmount. Those with access to clean water, clean air, good hospitals, government assistance, a job from home, a car and a nice place to live will be just fine. But that is on the physical level.
The emotional implications are different. For those of us who have suffered great loss and trauma, the Coronavirus represents much more than a period of social isolation and life adjustments. Trauma upon trauma hurts so much more. People who have worked hard to resolve their past pain and suffering will be hit much harder, in conversations, by the news, in their time alone, and in their intimate relationships. This is inevitable. And so while some people will be worried about their next meal, some people will be holding on tightly to their sanity. Please remember that despite all the hype and fear mongering that some people seem to thrive on, this is a situation that will get better. Do not allow this to unravel you. A form of mental discipline is needed right now to help us focus on other things so we can create balance. Now is a good time for writing, re-creating your career, downsizing your material life, planting a garden, forgiving someone you couldn’t before, trying a new health regime. We need to stay grounded to NOT be triggered. The trigger will always fail us. Trust in yourself but know what these are. And when you feel yourself reacting, ask yourself, is this one of my triggers? If you can identify it, you can surpass it. And all this drama will soon be over. You will come out of it stronger than ever.
Well, life seems suspended in mid air at least temporarily. But we have technology that allows us to do many things without even leaving our homes. Many people I know, are still able to work, or receive government assistance, thanks to our leadership in Canada. Even homeless people are being placed in hotels which were closed because of the Coronavirus. As for the developing world, it is difficult to know exactly what is happening, but people who are not used to the comforts of the Western Hemisphere have a resilience and flexibility to deal with crises that the “1st world” lost awhile ago. They rely on their community because there is no government assistance. Beyond the needs of humans, it is a time of healing for the planet and for this I am grateful. Nothing else would have stopped us in our tracks from continuing to live the way we were living, doing great damage every day to our environment. For those who have suffered traumas in their lives in the past, this event can trigger and reactivate old wounds. Fear incapacitates and can create a far reaching social malaise. The mere thought of a contagious illness, can evoke a primal response driven by our need for survival, that can be aggressive or defensive at best. For the people struggling emotionally with old pain that is being reactivated with loss and isolation, please focus on your own wellness. Get the help you need to move through this difficult time, with love and support. Know you are being triggered. Know this will end. I hope we will evolve and create a more compassionate and less materialistic society. I do a meditation daily with the earth. I connect with her, and I can tell you … she is very happy right now. Blessings. I am doing long distance healing sessions for 40 dollars an hour for anyone who needs to relieve stress and trauma. There is no talking, only the energy clearing of stress and trauma in your body, mind and soul. Be well. Be loving.
Who am I now? In light of all these profound universal changes and challenges what would I do, if I only had a few more months to live? What do I need to be at peace and just accept everything as it is today? Who do I love? Who do I need to forgive? A simple virus, and perhaps other factors has made us more fearful and less trusting. In a sense, all of our individual freedoms have been temporarily stripped away in the name of the common good. What is affecting us most right now is the social media… where we get our information and people get to show their true selves, whether it is blaming and judging others, or even just trying to profit from other’s misfortune. Our sense of security as humans has been put in question. The corona virus has become more than a respiratory illness that can kill the most vulnerable. It has become a story that we all need to process and share. I feel sad for the people whose health is already compromised. I feel devastated for the countries who have suffered so many losses, and I feel angry at the selfish behaviours of those who have let their fears contaminate the common decency of caring and sharing with others. This is not the time for that. The test of humanity lies in how we have evolved. Do not let your fear consume you to the point of hurting your neighbour. Be responsible and do your best.